so, it not worth to save me.

being struggled here for three year, and i still wandering like a zombie, mindless, goalless, helpless.
why should i save myself? it just doesn't worth it, and i shouldn't even be this world, this planet, this island.
arrrr, how pathetic i am, could not change anything. i try to kill some time but, time still can't be killed.

i stand before the crossroad of my life, again, i lost, again, i confused, i can not tell the better way, i fear not to move on.